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17 June 2011 @ 07:47 pm
In With I Make A Most Emo Return  

It's been a while. 

I'm bored and I'm sick right now. And feeling a bit...I don't know. Uninspired isn't exactly the right word for it, I've got plenty of ideas, just...I don't know. Stagnant. 

And so I thought I'd angst about it. 

It's times like these I miss being frighteningly involved in all those prompt and RP coms. I used to be clever_wanderer . It was a while ago, back when I was in high school. I caught myself going down the deep end, you know, spending more time on fanfiction and roleplaying and fandom than on anything that really held any meaning. A lot of drama happened, though none of it was really caused by anyone online. I took a good look at myself and decided I should probably stop. My fandom was taking over my life. I wept openly when David Tennant left Doctor Who. That was probably the moment I realized what I was doing. 

I'm twenty now. I'm pretty damn different than who I used to be. My life isn't consumed by theater anymore, I'm not obsessive about rehearsal and acting and performance and answering prompts and trying to play my RP character to the best of my abilities. I have other passions, but it's during the summer, when I'm not surrounding myself with them, that I miss having this other outlet. 

I have an obsessive personality, and right now, I'm lacking an obsession. 

How's that for some post-teenage angst? Personally, I think I could have been pretty adept at the whole "emo poetry" thing had I ever gotten my act together long enough as a teenager to write some.